my four year old is me.... this is what my parents threatened me with

• They are all laughing at me.... My parents, probably my sisters basically anyone who knew me as a child.
  
  
  My middle daughter is terrible, she's adorable i will give you that and her voice is not as gratting as mine was im sure but she is basically me as a child.
  
  
  
  As a child I was horrid. I was super loving, but I was a tyrant. Rebelled against any order. Apparently my voice could be heard within a twelve mile radius when i was upset. I did destructive things all the time especially if my parents told me not too. here i will list a few examples so you can get an idea of how terrible i was:
  
  As a child 6 and under
  
  
• I would peel the wall paper off my walls on purpose immediately after told and threatened not too.


• I would wake up and pee the bed, gross i know but as a child i didnt seem to mind lying in my own urine.
  
• to get back at my parents during time outs, i would climb under my bed and have a nice little pee.
  
• I hit, screamed, and tortured anyone in my way


• And i chronically whined.... And i would persistently ask for what I wanted.... Im sure this was the worst

Now there was much more terrible things I did but I thought this list would give you an example of just what my parents had to put up with. Basically as a child if you crossed me i punished you. my favorite weapon just happened to be pee.

So as a child and more so as an adolescent my parents would joke wth me and tell others basically what goes around comes around and I would get what i gave.


So when I had my first daughter and she was an angel. Even at six when she comes home with the super terrible i know everything six year old attitude she is not hard to get through too. When i give her a consequence she just pouts.

I had thought my parents were wrong though. My first daughter was an angel and my second baby smiled all the time.

Even at 9 months when my quiet smiling baby started yelling at me i didnt see the resembalance to me. Because from 18 months to two and half she went back to being sweet and kind and loving. Slowly though i see me in her and I fear for my sanity.

For example they coloured on my walls. I mean they coloured murals on like eight walls. Im going to figure out how to add pictures and give you all a laugh!

I made them wash them off. I was terribly stern I was a terribly mean mommy. Bria seemed to learn her lesson. She has coloured on the walls since but she has kept them small and hidden.... Mia punished me almost immediately for the wall incident and my harshness. She coloured my brand new chaise with marker....

Now when I say she is me.... its her reasoning skills and negotiating persistence that reminds me of me. It is exhausting. And funny. when she is naughty and she often is, she says things that I remember saying and I can see her train of thought like it is my own. The fact that she is so like me makes parenting her impossible... well almost. I cannot keep a straight face in the midst of one her episodes.

Panic Often sets in when i look at my gorgeous clever trouble maker and i think of my life as a teen..... and this is what my parents threatened me with.....

My House Smells like vomit

There is not a clean room in my house. uhg I can't stand it. and so what am i doing.... escaping to my computer lying to my husband saying i have to work.

This is not work..... well i guess sort of is, I make diapers for a living and this chronicles my diaper life.

I have just put a load of diapers in the wash and i only did that because I had to.

My Baby has being so sick. I mean sick ! She is six months old and i have never had a sick baby before. She started teething on tuesday night so that was a pretty sleepless night.... then she got sick on weds. nite. And when I say sick I mean "is it possible for that much stuff to come out of a little baby" kind of sick. More then once she covered me from head to toe in baby upchuck. we didnt sleep on wensday either..... On thursday she vomited so much she obstructed her airway. I took her to the hospital. the nurses helpline was going to make me call 911 but seriously i live closer then the ambulance.....well sort of. We didnt sleep on thusday nite either....... friday I was a zombie. my house smelled rancid.

I was drunk on exhaustion. we ate pizza. I hadn't being eating because i was to tired to make something. Pizza was good. we left all our dishes on the table. we left our clothes on the floor, toys were everywhere.

I went to bed early friday night. I expected the exhaustion drunkedness to let me fall asleep right away..... Oh my god...... I cant eefing sleep..... the baby is asleep, dennis is asleep, the girls are asleep and i cant sleep. I tried counting sheep. Yeah i did. I know its from a mattress commercial or whatever but i tried anyways.....I'm still not asleep. I look at the clock its just about 12:00 and all i can think about is trying to force myself to sleep. who knows how long i have..... before " she" starts again.

Yup I just referred to my precious gorgeous baby girl as "she". I havent slept. Im blaming my poor baby..... you try three days with no sleep and tell me how you handle it! I sleep.

baby wakes up at 3:45 whine crying.... I ignore.... dennis doesn't... God i love him! at 4:30 she is still whine crying. dennis and me are both up now.... nothing is working... 5:00 still whine crying.... dennis says " oh god just go to sleep" I say "I'm Trying" He laughs.

I decide to give "the brain damage giving, everyone gets bad emails about the danger of numbing the toungue and choking to death, poison BABY ORALGEL " and for those of you who are against it I did my own home studies and not once did my toungue go so numb I choked on it.... I also give her some tylenol.

By six she is sleeping and by six oh one I am too. I sleep and so does den till 9:30 our older girls have being up eating wagon wheels for a couple hours.

When she wakes at ten I drag my lazy butt out of bed. I pick her up and have a snuggle. Even when she is sleep sweaty, puke covered, and a full cloth diaper full of pee , she smell precious and perfect. Im nuzzling her when i see something coming out of her ear. I look and it is full on infected I can see puss (god that word is gross) coming out of her ear. Great I was suppose to bring her to the emergency today and now im going to have to.

Now let me tell you I was not looking forward to a saturday visit to the emergency department. The wait is terrible.... always like fifteen or more people waiting to see a doctor and i was going to have to hold my baby on my lap so random germ infested people wouldn't feel the need to touch her hands and her face. I am prepared I put on my moby wrap and swaddle my baby put her in facing me the only visible part of her is her face and people wont touch her when her face is so close to me.

Now dont get me wrong... Im not a germa phobe anymore.... but the hospital is a breeding ground for mrsa and staph bacterias not to mention people who go there arent there because they r healthy.

I go in baby is quiet crying she is taking it all in. Quietly letting people assess her. They send us out into the waiting room to wait.... not a priority. I sit with her and after a minute she is use to the waiting room she starts to whine cry. Someone stops and says how cute she is and touches her face..gross. Then after a minute of whinecrying she starts to really cry.... The people in the waiting room look at me with a mixture of pity and am I really going to have to listen to this for the next two hours.

Here comes the nurse. he says " can reg and aaaah tinsley follow me."

I think what we just got here. OH well they put me in the kid room. Baby keeps crying. I try to calm her I try to make her laugh. But all I get is a laugh cry and it sounds kind of creepy so I hold her and let her cry. I hear the doctor, he says" no no I will see them after" I will take care of the babe first"

What really.... it's a full house in the er... I just saw the ambulance bring in someone I saw three beds full at least and someone in the cast room and I get to see the doctor first..... Baby is still wailing. Doctor says to me " i will just wash my hands and we will see what we can do for you baby"

He comes in and listens to her chest. She screams the entire time. I tell him about the puss ( the word just grosses me out) he has a look and says "wow I cant even see her drum she is really infected." Hands me a prescription gives her some motrin and i am on my way out... As Im thanking the doctor tinsley falls asleep so quickly we both look down. She is so peaceful. So sweet. Had she being doing this ten minutes ago i would still be waiting in the waiting room instead im joyfully leaving. Woohoo thank you tinsley for being unbareable!!!!!

She sleeps I sleep.

Now it is monday one full day from the last time she was ill. My house is still a disaster. It is gross. I should be doing something but im not. Im on my computer, d- virusing the kids computer while siting with mine on my lap pretending to work hoping my husband will wash the floors.....

no Farm for this gal

of course i didn't actually have the guts to ask dennis for a sheep. This is not my first time down the barnyard pet road. and let me tell you no one is ever on my side.... well amanda usually is.



About a year or so ago I was positive I needed a cow. seriously I needed a cow. when I say I like to do things myself i'm talking everything.. the cow started actually with amanda telling me I should read the little house on the prairie books. yeah sounds juvenile i know but man are they interesting. Well during the story it descrbes how "ma" makes cheese, get this....gag.. with the stomach of a milk fed calf. I had never thought of cheese being a home made thing before. Sooo I totally got into looking up how to make cheese and where to get supplies from and get this I ordered special plant based enzymes for curding up the cheese. Yay not killing baby cows at this house! So I can hardly wait to make some cheese as soon as my stuff arrives I get down to making some mozzarella.



mmmmm. It is good. wow and easy. So I make a few more bathches. mozza is easy its a fresh cheese ... no aging. But around my forth batch something goes wrong my curds look like crappy tiny flakes of feta. and it wont melt to mozzarella. a waste. my next batch same thing.



Of course i go to my trusty computer and find out its the over sterilation of the milk companies messing with my curd. Well I cant just call up island farms and tell them to turn it down a notch so i put a facebook call out for anybody with some home pasterized milk. haha what a joke.. im the most granola out of anyone i know..... I would be the one to have a cow and milk it. Yeah I should have a cow and milk it. What a great idea. I mean Dennis is always talking about getting acrerage. Why have land if your not going to use it. So i run it by my trusty always on board hubby.. he says great idea.

woohoo butter time!

then he says " don't cows make the most milk in summer." "yeah" i say. "well we're never home in the summer"

hmmm he is right. were chronic summertime vacationers. may to sept im not around. but i mean im talking a glorious farm with chickens cows ponds and whatever else you put on a hobby farm, oh yeah and a duck definetly want a duck. who needs to vacation when you have a wicked farm. plus the farms im looking at cost a pretty penny so we totally wont have money to vacation, or buy cheese. so it will be a good thing that i can make my own!!!

so now in the present time, months later I dont live on a farm.. no cow no chickens no pond no flipping duck. As it turns out i kind of like having a bit of cash and it was a high price to pay to make a little cheese at home...

so not to put me through the whole excitement of getting a farm to the reality that it just wont happen I put the sheep out of my head pretty quickly... besides im a crappy knitter!

can i have a sheep dennis

So in the 50's wool "longies" or shorties" were soakers. pants shorts or diaper wraps to cover your babies cloth diapers. well now is the new age of wool. apparently wool is the all time bulletproof diaper cover.

Now those of you who know me know im totally into making my own stuff. Im not about to spen fifty dollars on a diaper cover.

So i research wool..... wikihow is amazing...how-to is not bad.... its dinner time my kids r hungry and im glued to the computer screen figuring out ways to make wool diaper covers. den says the kids r hungry and i say make some kd. I hear bria say not again no i dont want kraft dinner. You know you've being serving to much KD when a six year old refuses!!!

I get up ...reluctantly... and scan my cupboard and freezers. poor dennis he is craving red meat and i 've being serving chicken for a week. I decide i could make bacon mushroom carbonara and a apple fig salad and be back to the computer in no time.... I admit it I have a Problem.

Sitting down for dinner... rule at my house we always sit together for dinner.... this rule is so fricking lame i could be researching the best way to use recycled material to make diaper covers instead im watching my six year old make lettuce wraps with carbonara. gag.

I shovel food down super fast. Im done, when your done you can leave the table. aaaaahhhh back at my computer..... all the imformation i could possibly need with a few strokes of my fingertips.

So research tells me how to make wool longies out of old sweaters...... I have ridiculous size closet... ive worked in a clothing store for ten years I ve actually made my husband convert a bedroom into a walk in closet. So of course i must have some old wool sweaters buried in there. I start going through the labels.... can you believe it the only sweater i have that has any wool in it is a vest and its only 13 percent. i have litterally spent thousands of dollars on clothes made out of viscose and acrylic..... I should read labels when i buy more often.

haha an idea strikes me.... the hospital auxillary....our towns version of a thrift store. Of course i can find old wool sweaters there. It will be rich resource for my diaper needs! So i have the great idea of going with three kids in tow. when i say great idea i mean the total opposite. the store is full of crabby people searching for bargains... who knew this place was such a happening place. I go to a rack of womans sweaters.... nothing... nothing...100 % cashmere wool... hmm pink... im gonna try....nothin nothing nothing nothin....HOLY I seriously can't believe i cant find one lambs wool sweater. this blows.... mens section ... not even a sweater section... well thats fine i want girly things anyways.... plus size oooh whats this yup its a totally ugly boiled lambs wool swearter. i dont care im gonna make it work. i bring my two pitiful finds up to the casheer she says fifteen dollars. HUh fifteen dollars for two used sweaters. I dont say this out loud but i think it.. i also think crap i have to cut sew and make mistakes 30 more dollars i could have had someone make them for me.


I make them and they blow. uber ugly. oh well... time and money not well wasted.

So im at the fall fair. lots of cute things. but this one station really catches my eyes three ladies... sheep skins, bags of dirty wool, those spinning machines ,"like from sleeping beauty", ladies knitting. I can knit. i've knitted before not well but i'd get better.

Now this is how my brain works.

I dont think of buying the wool already spun. I dont think about buying the unspun wool. i think i should buy a sheep. harvest my own wool... ive done it on farmville...looked easy enough to me. spin it dye it and knit it into soaker. of course i can do this... now one problem occurs to me.

how do i ask my husband..."can i have a sheep dennis"

want to cloth diaper your newborn..

So Some times i feel like i should help let a mom cheat.... I make diapers. It's my buisness. its how i make moula to feed my brood. but you need money too. lots of moms want to cloth their baby right from birth.... and this is a good choice. the earth loves you for it! But Lots of those moms waste they're money and a lot of time doing laundry. A newborn will go #2 like every five minutes..... so if you have some fancy all in ones or pockets designed for newborn you will need twelve to get you through the day. And thats expensive and a lot of laundry. by the time your babe is two months he or she will have chunked up enough to fit in a size medium.... or one of my BUMBAROO diapers 10lbs. to potty time dipes. Most medium dipes will be good till 18 months, if not longer. Thats when to invest your moula in a fancy diaper.

The solution is to buy two small covers. and stuff them.... I cheat at this too.

You know you've being there. you change your precious babes bum and seconds after you're done they let out a little wet fart..... it's not much but if you leave it they're your babe will probably rash, you change them its one more sposie or cloth dipe to take care of. so this is how i cheat.... I fold a 12X10 peice of flannel in three, this absorbs moisture, over that i put three layers of fleece. measurement is like 4 " X 10" . When the little one does the squirt thing you just remove one layer of fleece, which i usually use to clean them up with. This method will cut your full dipe changes to like 4 - five a day. the covers can be quickly washed and dried if needed and a whole day of changes adds up to about the same size as one all- in one diaper..... and three days of material also adds up to the cost of an all in one!


My babe is about 6 months now but i have to admit i always use this method in the morning... I will put a clean all-in-two on her but i also put a layer of fleece because it never fails she always goes about 15 minutes after her first change of the day!!!!!

Crayons on My Dipes

I hate crayons!!!!!

I mean I hate them! and at this point i hate Crayola who has the audacity to claim they r washable.

Ten diapers aswell as baby blankets and these amazing sheets that i have definetly paid tooo much money for are covered in turquoise and fushia crayons. My dryer is coated.

This is the second day of being pissed off. Usually i dont last that long but it is not @#$%ing washable.

When i take them out and sit on the kitchen floor and tell my 6 and four year to gather all the crayons in the house and put them in the garbage. My six year is shocked.... why would her art loving mom who hangs all her gorgeous pictures of the same three princess on her bedroom wall, command with such authority to get those horrible crayons out of my house.

I calmly explain that for the second time crayons have made it into the dryer and destroyed things... "B" says (thats my six year olds nick name. " can I see"

I show her and she asks "whats the prob mom" she says they look great and theyre you're favorite colours. SHe says I always use them all the time to make your pictures.... In my head im thinking that little brat just confessed to being the irresponsible crayon holder. Im terrible. Im super terrible. Im holding my six year old responsible for my laundry mishaps. I feel like shouting in my frustrations... the sheet cost 90 dollars... its not a gorgeous soft feeling green its a meely of crayon colour turq, fushia, and what ever those two colours make when they are mixed together!!!!!!!!!

Deep breathe. maybe a few more....what time is it? 11:15.... I should be making lunch but instead im torturing my kids by making them throw out the crayons themselves... I take pity on them or maybe on myself 'the whining is terrible'. "go away mommy will do it and i will get you pencil crayons they make better pictures anyways"

I saw on martha stewart an iron and a paper towel will get it out. I grab a diaper and start. I place the iron down and pull it up "yes" the paper towel has colour on it!!! this is working!!! I look at the dipe itself it doesnt look different.... just more of this ironing will do the trick......( this is where i decide im crazy) I have completely ignored my over priced sheet to fix something that gets crapped in!
If you were wondering it doesnt matter if you iron the dipe for a half an hour the dipe stays stained and you get a colourful useless papertowel. Thats a half an hour i will never get back!!!!

My next idea is to boil the wax out..... i put a few dipes in a big pot of water and boil them. to waste time while this is happening i decide to go to the dryer and clean it..... Its hard.... I turn on the dryer to loosen the horrible wax. I get some off this way... but not enough to put anything in there safely..... I try good old baking soda. nope it doesnt work.... Oh my god im going to have to use the horrible magic eraser " you know the one im talking about.... you've probably gotten the emails telling you that it will burn your skin to the bones or kill your dog " yup Im gonna need that kind of cleaner on the dryer.....I get it out glove free.... im living on the wild side and scrub.... with very little results.... stupid horrible crayons and magic eraser!! Magic nothing!!!

I hate mr. clean now too.

The boiling doesnt work!!!!

Am I Moving Backwards

Im a serious cloth diaperer now..... But i have found a sposie diaper that doesn't burn my babes butt. They're brown and chlorine free and if we only use one and then cloth she is fine. I had to buy them because we were going camping in the rain and the possibility of me running out of clean dry diapers was to great to risk.

My husband is loving the ease of disposables.... im not sure why. i feel like the process is about the same:

1. lay baby down
2. take dirty dipe off
3. wipe
4. put clean dipe on
5. Now here is the difference on cloth you walk to one of the two pails i have and slip the dipe in to be washed .... or you take the dipe off and go to the garbage.

what i feel is the benefit of cloth is we can go weeks if not longer with out going to the dump. Also we never have to clean up dirty diapers off the lawn that the neigbors dog has torn apart eaten and regurgitated....yup its gross.

cloth we have to do laundry... we have to! this is good for me because i hate laundry this makes sure at least some things in our house get clean.

But am i getting to into cloth diapering...I started off with a two peice cloth diaper system. the diaper then the cover.... then i went for the cadilac all in one.... then i went to the all in two which is like an all in one but you stuff it with a soaker and they dry super fast. Now these are all amazingdiapers but now im making these really cute covers and im using receiving blankies and the orgami fold with a fleece liner. this is a complicated three peice system and im loving it..... so am i moving backwards????

Jay's nicotine patch makes me reconsider disposables.

My sis and me with our busy life often escape to go shopping. Not even fun shopping. The god i dont want to go to walmart but we've being using mcdonalds napkins as toilet paper for two days kind of shopping.

So we pick each other up and head on down to "waller-mart" This is what one of my daughters calls it and i cant seem to stop.

I'm getting the ever neccesary bathroom tissue dish soap and what not. She is getting Jay some nicotine patches. He's quitting again and the patch really helps.

Were spending a lot of time in the patch aisle and I start thinking, This patch is small but he absorbs the poison nicotine through his skin.... weird.

I go home and carry on with my life as usual.

We are still inserting mimi's undies with the left over sposies from tinsley at night time. and she is still not making it through the nite. Even with two pee breaks in the nite she is always wet in the am.

Doing laundry one day i guess one of the disposables went through the wash. YOu know what im talking about... the gel or whatever those soft little pebbles r were all over my clothes. so I washed again.... they were still theyre all over my shit!!! Not disapearing. They look unatural. This is definetly bad for the enviroment and im trying to wash them down the drain. Very irresponsible.

So I bring my clothes and sit on my kitchen floor by the trash and start picking off the gelly balls. Im aggravated and i blame this problem on my husband dennis. God why do men even attempt laundry...argh!!! Can you imagine how pissed i would be if dennis left all the laundry to me. I'm so flipping unreasonable!

But Im starting to think about these disposables even more. Two loads of laundry and its basically intact. I look online to find out what they're made of. Any cloth diaper site cant wait to tell you all about the horrible disposable. So i dont go theyre, i just want to know. What i read is " the most poisonous chemical in the world dioxin" Who knows if this statement is true. But then I read "cancer rates up" "Causes Cancer" "Infertility" "500 years to decompose" which i find a weird statement since they've only being around for 50 years so how would they know! But its obvious they can survive quite a bit. I dont know why but at this momment all I can think about is my brother in law jay's patch.

Holy crap he can get nicotine from a 2"x2" patch. What the F#@% am i leaching into my childrens tiny little bodies. I decide I dont want to know. I shut the computer off automattically disgusted by my train of thought. Crap now it's going to take forever to boot up! Im such an overreactor.

But i dont care no more disposables, In fact im going to buy all natural deodarant and soap. That nicotine patch has just made the jones house a lot stinkier!

dumb conscious

I have convinced Dennis that diapering with a sock is just working backwards. I mean you have to still do laundry and you use a disposable. Our compromise is we will insert the disposables into our three and half year olds panties for night time use. This way we have less waste the dipes r smaller then the pull ups. And we get to use the supplies we have....hope fully once they r done she willbe making it throught the night.

( I just reread that paragraph, and we are so lame!)

im about a month into successful cloth diapering, and my conscious kicks in. Is this really a resolution, I mean I literally have no choice. I have to cloth diaper, or look at my babes bleeding butt. Nope i decide im not doing my part.

Then an idea strikes me

Ben and ticka, My nephew and neice spend three full days here a week. I will use cloth on them while they're here. Thats helping the enviroment. Perfect!

So my mother- ease cloth dapers r snap diapers, which have theyre advantages, (they dont wear out, they dont snag in the wash, they dont collect fuzz) But have you ever restled a one year old boy and tried to do up the four snaps that r neccesary and then get him in a cover and velcro it shut.

Well if you havent don't. it was horrible, it definetly was a two person job. This is when i decided i needed to invest in some all-in-one diapers. For those of you who dont know they r exactly like a disposble but washable & reusable. I went to vancouver island to look for some on a shopping trip....... 24 fricking dollars.... as if..... I found some used ones for 11 dollars, but i couldnt bring myself to do it.

I got home and ebay'd it. 115 dollars would get me 8 brand new diapers. I'm cheap, I mean i had the money but i hate spending it.


So one day I decide Im gonna sew a diaper. and im gonna use stuff from my house.

yup thats right i was sure i could make it work

I found one of hubby's old windbreakers and an old blanket and an old dishtowel..... nothingbut the best for my babe!!!

I was quite proud of the results.... my husband sang praises..... even after the diaper leaked all over the place, The babies clothes, our bed it was gross!

So I moved on to a table cloth.

This worked quite well actually and was really cute.... till the cute print on the table cloth wore off and then it started cracking.

But i was getting good at the diapers now I had made a few cute ones out of a placemat and some faux fur. this one worked great but was really stiff.

None of these though compared to the cute ones online with the coloured stretchy waterproof fabric. I wanted to make those. I really wanted to make them. I searched for fabric and found a place in california... shipping was to much fabric was too much but i ordered two colours and waited impatiently for them to arrive.

did you really put a sock in her diaper?

Yeah crap, I guess this means I have to stick to my resolution.

It dawns on me 6 diapers is no where near enough for full time diapering. I hate laundry and im going to have to wash every day. so i start looking. Powell river is small. Apparently theyre is no need for anystores in town to carry cloth diapers. But i can't be the only mommy to cloth diaper. I Luck out one day and find 10 mother-ease one size fits all cotton terry dapers at the baby consignment store. And a bunch of covers. Im set.

I take these home, boil, bleach, wash, dryer dry, and sun dry. This is me sterilizing the barely used diapers. i put them on my babe. they're a bad fit, she still small and thesse r one size fits all.

But I use them with enthusiasm, she has no rash at all. YAY!!!

My husband still having a hard time giving up our disposables.... we had a bunch of unused diapers and apparently he didnt want to waste. Has being sneaking them on her. One morning on the weekend i wake up ans change her bum. SHe is wearing a disposable. i feel like hitting my hubby, how could he do this to our babes bum. I open the dipe and see black. what s this. Oh my god he has put a sock inbetween her and the diaper.

I take a momment, am I mad, NO, am i disappointed, no, Im annoyed and cant figure out why. This took alot of thought on my husbands part. I know he didnt want to waste diapers, he protected her skin. Im stll annoyed though.

So I laugh and say did u really put a sock in her diaper?

Den says Crap (2)

The chances are, she is four weeks old.... she poops all the time. But its really not gross. and at this time im under the impression that you have to rinse the poop so I prewash the poops and put them in a bag to be washed a little later. ( I find out later you can just skip this step till baby starts eating solids.)

Finally her rash is better! thank goodness the cream is working.

Right before bed i put a sposie on her. A "sposie" is what we cloth snobs call disposables.... annoying how we have to give them a nickname!!!! But my baby isnt suffering thought the night in a cloth diaper. gross. Morning comes shes cute she stretches i smell poop. Grab a sposie from by the bed and some wipes. open up the diaper and there is blood again. oh my god!!!! Its obvious now the problem is im going to have to wake up in the night change a diaper and put more cream on her.

Throughout the day i go between cloth and disposables her rash is mildly better the cream is working not as good as the day before but its not bleeding. i put off laundry for a day of facebooking, internet surfing and chatting on the phone.

Bed again. cream, diaper, sleep, wake, cream, diaper, sleep. Morning, cute stretch, poop! I open her diaper and i see more bloody welts argh! I get a blanket lie her on it for an hour. her bum needs good old fashion air. She pees she poops air is working, I plan on doing laundry sometime to day so i guess I'll be washing blankets and diapers. I have no cloth left. we have to go out so i use sposies.

By the end of the day the rash is up her front. great more cream. Now im using baby powder. Im not a fan of it, but at this point im desperate. I wrap her up. she's a swaddle baby. i put her down to bed and i do laundry.

Those who know me know I hate laundry. I work in a clothing store when im not chronically reproducing. I see and fold clothes all day long. like I want to come home and fold more fricking clothes. My laundry room is a mountain of clothes rags and towels. If i happen to clean them, i rarely fold them. thats what husbands r for right??? But i do laundry because i have to clean diapers blankets and towels that my babe has done her buisness on.

In the morning the rash is not better, its not worse but not better. I have clean dipes so I put one on her she goes back to sleep.... lazy baby. I put another cloth dipe on her, feed her, back to sleep. Then i put another cloth on, feed her, and she goes back to sleep..... Im serious she is super lazy!

Its about 3 in the afternoon.Baby wakes up i take the dipe off so she can get air on that bum. I look at her bum and the horrible red bleeding rash is now two tiny spots on her bum. Ive solved the problem
My baby is allergic to disposables. Is this possible?

Den comes home early, I look at him and say tinsley is allergic to "regular diapers"

Den says "crap"

It won't be gross Den

I was sure it was going to be..... I mean its pooh. But den was a plumber and i had five children around me all the time and i had to see their poop all the time. Besides tins poop was the least grossest.

Where this all really started was newyears resolutions about four years ago. I started making our family resolutions to be things to help the enviroment. Free range eggs, biodegratable natural soap, less meat more local etc etc.... Den had jumped on board with all of these surely i could get him to think cloth diapering would be a great idea.

Before i had my baby I had a friend offer me some of her cloth diapers. The thought crossed my mind i could use a few a day that would help the enviroment. Perfect resolution done!


Baby girl comes and is absolutely gorgeous. perfect in everyway We stay in the hospital for a five days and while were there she has horrible diaper rash. When i say horrible it is red bleeding welts.
We get home rash continues, I have now used every kind of cream available i've moved on to prescriptions.... not a fan... but there is blood on my disposables everytime i take them off. she is about 4 weeks old when my friend hands me a bag of cloth diapers.. they r really cute.

I put her in one, I immediately feel proud. Im helping the enviroment. Im a good mom. haha what a geek i am. My hubby comes home takes one look and says im not doing the laundry. Still high on my green proud momma momment, i agree "no i will do all the diapers dont you worry."

This is when i was thinking three diapers a day, what r the chances that they'll even have poop in them?